The Walking Dead

Cold is the ground to both the living and the death, but only the living realize it even is cold. In Christ is life, and without our heavenly father awaking us from the dead, we will never realize how empty this world is. Like a mirage in the desert, we think we know what we are looking at, until the sunset, and it’s no longer there. When we feel the Sun on our skin for the first time, when our Lord awakes us, all we want is more (as we are drawn towards him, and away from the cold bitter ground). Sadly like me, many of us are uncomfortable with our feet ever leaving the ground, because it leaves us completely without control. Our King calls us forth, (breathing life into us) and as we struggle to our feet, we realize that we can get JUST enough of Jesus (aka Sun) standing with our feet on the ground, that we (in our fallen state) refuse to fully let go. As a soul piercing warning, our father proclaims “So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will SPUE thee out of my mouth”-Rev.3:16

So, let’s just stop and think about that verse for a moment. Is Christ saying that he hates us ground-clingers that he has chosen and called his own, more than he hates the piles of lifeless bodies strewn round about us? What is worse than be given a chance to live, and deciding to just lie in bed for the rest of your life? NOTHING. Throughout my life I have had my ups-an-downs, and seeing I just came out of a low, I have rediscovered the joy of the Sun…and never want to be stuck in a shadow again! Join me my friends on this trip to the Sun. Let us encourage each other as we take wing on the life long trip to his gates, and leave this dreary world behind. The earth shakes with his power, and all those that decide to stay with their feet on the ground, will disappear under the bodies of those that were never had the chance to even feel the Sun, and all his glory.

Awaken my children and feel my life

I beckon you to glory, to stand by my side!

Haste on the wings of my gift so wise

Leave the bodies that lie and have died.

Upward soar like an eagle on the skies

Through the storm my light, will guide

Don’t look back, for earth is always hides.

To my arms I beckon many, but few reside

My prayer is that those he has beckoned will awake, AND reside fully in him. Let us not be the walking dead, but rather the eagles of the sky.

…Yep

It’s been one of those weeks….Worked on pumping on an INSANE application for Appsumo.com …but haven’t heard a word back from them, so it looks like that dream has gone poopy. Landscaping has been landscaping. I’ve got a bartending gig this weekend though, so at least I’ll make a little extra money #goodbyetomoredebt

Working on a couple projects at the moment…attempting to see if I can run four different twitter accounts on a timed cycles, awhile keeping them all different, and only check them once a day! Also started something called No Holds Bar’d, which is a bar and grill review site…we’ll see how that goes.

What I’ve Done, I Forgive Myself…Have You?

Today as I sit in Starbucks sipping on my Cinnamon Dulce, What I’ve Done by Linkin Park comes on…Now, I’m not sure if any of you have listened to this song before, but if you haven’t, DO! Sit, is a darkk room with a VErY good set of headphones on(ones with a good bass), close your eyes, and let it take you through your life…WHAT REALLY HAVE YOU DONE? In your darked closets, in the very inner corneres of your mind, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?…I know that those dark moments are only between you and our father, but, I can’t help but weep at the thought of what I’ve done. I confess, I was and am a sinner…I struggle everyday with my past, and the deeds I wish I’d never commited…The lies, the lies to cover the lies, and the cloth I threw over my past. I have come before my heavenly father screaming, crying, begging, and pleading for his forgiveness…and yet, that shadow seems to look at me evertime I look back. And, that is wht I have come to understand…I look back. As Linkin Parks beautiful lyrics go…”I’ll face myself and CROSS OUT what I’ve become.” Now, I know I can’t erase my sins…That’s left up to God, and only he holds that power. BUT, though I can’t erase my sins from the annuals of heaven, I also can’t hold on to my sin/past, and take that amazing glory from Christ. A very good friend of mine told me (while talking about the tragedies that have past in my life), that we as individuals must look not to the past and bewail our mistakes, but rather must look ahead and plan our future, REMEMBERING that Christ is all powerful, and he has allowed the past to PASS!…AND TO LEAVE IT THERE! So, THIS IS  WHAT I SAY TO MY PAST…

For what I’ve done
I start again
And what ever pain may come
Today this ends
I’m fovgiving what I’ve done!!!”

Satan has no authority in our lives as believers, but also neither does out past…it has PASSED! As you go throughout your lives, claim everyday as the Lord’s anew…denying He Who will be cast into the firey lake, the momentary pleasure of seeing you struggle through out your earthly life. Taking dominion for the Lord God isn’t living through the history of our forefathers(thats already written on previous chapters), but rather writting the future of our children…Their present is our future. I challenge you to look to the future…live today as if yester-years never happen.

In the writting of this, I not justifying past sins, or saying it’s ok to sin, and than saying “oh, I’m a new man now…that was my past”…Repent, move on, and MOVE ON…

also…I didn’t spell check this at all(…what ever to all the grammar police).

So, today I don…

So, today I don’t know what got into me, but, I have no desire to talk or be around anymore…at least of the same sex. I live in a house of four males, and sometimes it’s just nice to not be around more testosterone. Everyone else can just go into their room when they want space, but, because I live in the living room on the couch, and my computer is in the corner…I can’t ever get away from people. Space…Distance…these are precious things to experience. This is the last week I work landscaping as a full time job…Next week I do nothing but practice my mixology skills, read up on wine, drinks, and bartending, and apply for work at different places.

And they call me the Incredible Hulk…

…Not really, but, I’ve been called a lot things growing up, and many of them weren’t very nice. Out of all the things I’ve been called, accused of, pointed at for, or blamed, it so far has never been for NOT working hard. I’ve tried to live my life with the philosophy that:

1. You only have one life…and never go part way on anything…ANYTHING! Love like your heart is going to explode if you don’t. Fight like you alone stand between the devil and his final goal. And, never think you’ve reached a rest stop.

2. No one really cares about who you think they think you are, but rather who you really are.

3. Life is the hallway between birth, and Christ’s arms…and along the way, we get to paint pictures on the walls for those that come after us…have you ever seen a master of the arts with nice clean pretty cloths? I’d rather have paint stuck under my nails, and smeared on my face, and my brushes all worn out by the end, and have to use my fingers.

 

I could go on..but I think I got my point across. I’ve found living a life like this, is exhausting. It’s like getting hit by a freight train over and over again…with out a break…but, as the bibles says, there is a season for everything. Even, rest. Rest doesn’t mean we stop loving, or fighting, or painting…It might mean that we receive a kiss or hug, instead of being the one giving one…or raising our shield against a blow instead of raining down blows…or, stepping back to inspect our master piece, to ensure we’re communicating what we desire to.

With all that said, at this point in my life, I have recently gone through so many changes, I’m having to step back and breath in deeeeeeeeply….very deeply, to ensure I’m still facing the right direction, and painting on the right wall. I don’t know why God has me here at this place, at this time in my life, but he does. I’m 23yrs old and realized I’ve only really accomplished one REAL goal in my life, that I’ve had since I was a kiddo…and that needs to change. In the future I hope to delve a little deeper into what I mean by everything I’ve said above…but, bear with me. I’m a wandering soul right now, and will end at random points, and jump all over the place. BUT, I hope at the end of my life, if you take all my crooked turns in life, and all my stupid moments, and all my jumps from cliffs, they’ll all point down the hallway of life, to the door at the end that reads Heaven.

Ho hum

I don’t get why I can’t seem to write anymore…It’s like there is a block that formed, and I can’t figure out how to get past it.

Today I had my second interview for a job at a company called RED VENTURES, it’s a sales and marketing company that is very hard to get into(I’m told 1 out of 10-15 apps). I’ve got the interview for tomorrow at 2pm for the in person. I’ve got breakfast at 7am with Ben Toelson, and then work at CP!…but am going to have to jump ship for a little bit to have the interview at RV.

I’ve done it!

This is real.

 

What you’re seeing is for real…Tom has shaved his head…and baby, I mean SHAVED it. I’ve always wanted to see what a shaved head was like, and since the last of my older buddys got married I figured I have the time to do it. btw, I don’t really care that everyone doesn’t like it…I didn’t do it to please anyone.

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CollegePlus! won!!!!

Today was a great day of football…inwhich Collegeplus! beat Vision Forum in an all out full tackle(with no gear). There will be pictures to follow…just don’t be shocked by the enormous size difference between our teams:)